Caminho em frente pra sentir saudades!

I really like Marcelo Camelo. Since he used to sing/write in Los Hermanos. I heard in a blog that he's in a solo work now. The album is called "Sou". I downloaded it from internet and start listening.

But, the point of this post is not this. In one of his songs, "Janta", there's a verse: "Caminho em frente pra sentir saudades"(something like: "I go on to miss it"). Oh, gosh! It really touchs me. And then I start to think why is that.

In every relashionship I had until now, when I  was feeling secure and full loved for the other person I moved on. Or I cheated or I fight 'till the person give up on me. And them, I felt sorry, and cry, and felt depressed. I need miss the person. 'Cause it's just this way I know how I feel about us and stuff.

At least, that's what I'm thinking *now*.

Música: Marcelo Camelo feat Mallu Magalhães - Janta

I need something quick just to stop me thinking. ♪

It’s a long time since the last time I wrote here. So many things going on... And I’m a lazy person and I hate it, but I’m not in the mood to change.

I’ve been happy lately. Strangely happy and light!

Last week i travelled to São Paulo. Stayed at Jackie’s house. [my big sis... luv ya!]

It was a great time. Hanging out with friends I didn’t see for centuries!

Aaaaand I went to Dave Matthews Band’s show. I really love him and his band. It was so special too me. And all this things happened ‘cause Bines [great friend!] gave us tickets to the concert.

I missed the therapy today... I’m so happy... but now I’m worried.

Last session, I told Silvia [my therapist] that I wasn’t in love with anyone and for the first time in my life I was ok with that. She said to me there are diference between don’t wanna be in love and don't be able to love someone. Now I’m thinking... I don’t wanna or I'm not able to?! Really don’t know...

I started to think about all my relationships... all my 4 boyfriends... And how I treated them when I found out they love me. The truth is: I have serious intimacy problems. Indeed.

Music: Cigarrete Lit - Dave Matthews Band

Ps: This draw was made by Dave Matthews with his iphone and posted in his twitterpic.